When You Thought I wasn't Looking -

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You hung my first painting on the refrigerator
And I wanted to paint another.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You fed a stray cat
And I thought it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You baked a birthday cake just for me
And I knew that little things were special things.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You said a prayer
And I believed there was a God that I could always talk to.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You kissed me good-night
And I felt loved.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
I saw tears come from your eyes
And I learned that sometimes things hurt—
But that it’s alright to cry.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You smiled
And it made me want to look that pretty too.

When you thought I wasn’t looking
You cared
And I wanted to be everything I could be.

When you thought I wasn’t looking—
I looked . . .
And wanted to say thanks
For all those things you did

When you thought I wasn’t looking.

- Paulo Coelho's Blog !

long time .. since You smiled Like you Meant it !

do it do it do it ..... :)

lots of intense-love,  <3

S

Tale of - Three li'l Birdies !

They met ...

 together .. they loved to talk .. 

they laughed at each other's stupidity..

they bullied .. they cared..

 

they enjoyed.. they promised to be FRIENDS FOREVER ..

 

they would live, love , laugh like there's no tomorrow...  they forgot everyone around them when they were TOGETHER !

 They cried.. they hugged..

 they stood by each other during the bad times...

BUT.. things changed, they changed?! .. they were separated ... why, how... if only chirpy knew ..

 

 she wasn't alone , but she felt alone without THEM ..

 SHE tried... is trying ...

 - and she wishes they lived Happily ever after  (together) .....

LOVE and LOVE 

- S

Say You will !

For You,

It’s TIME:

1.      Set your Priorities straight and follow it religiously.

2.      Let go of the Uncertainties.

3.      STOP! Yes, stop “over”- analyzing not-so-important issues/situations.

4.      STOP letting those silly doubts gnaw at you.

5.      Don’t fret over the hurtful incidents rather look at what those incidents taught you instead. Yes?

6.       Voice “your” opinion.

7.      Hold your spine, erect! Boost that Self- Confidence.

8.      Believe in Yourself.

9.      Smile at me with utmost Admiration in your eyes (like you did earlier) =)

10.   Convert the Broken smile to the crescent –moon one! :D "eeee !"

11.   Spend quality, “paisa-vasool” (aka valuable) time with ME, alone - No disturbances, no interruptions a.k.a. throw your phone in the bin when with ME!

12.   Show me the CrAzY mOvEs- once again! 

13.   Let the child in you take control, once a week, at least.

14.   Take a good look at yourself, followed by some Pampering! (conditions apply)

15.   Remove those boring glasses, replace them with hot sun-glasses- a.k.a. have a good time out in the sun (wear your sunscreen without fail! ) :P

16.   Keep trying things you haven’t before. ENJOY it. LOVE it.

17.   Organize your thoughts as often as you can.

18.   Stop seeking LOVE and HAPPINESS. It’s like a Butterfly, more you chase it, more it eludes You. Look away and it’ll come and gently sit on your shoulder!

19.   Make peace with your conscience.

20.   Reunite with your BFFs! (referring to the half-read books on your book shelf)

21.   QUIT the bad-bad habits!

22.   Don’t be cruel to your Lungs, liver, etc. ( as a result of the previous statement)

23.   Don’t think being “emotionless” will prevent the shell covering your heart, from CRACKING! No, it doesn’t work that way!

24.   Conserve the saline water in your body. (referring to all the tear-shedding for small- small things)

25.   Take good care of yourself, first, then your loved ones. (by that I don’t mean – be SELFISH)

26.   Stop depending on others.

27.   Believe, you can only depend on yourself for YOUR happiness.

29.   Believe, you are the Master of your destiny.

30.  Oh yes, cut down the obsession with the snooze button on your alarm.

31.  Lay your eyes off the Blinking (Not)- red light ! (No good!)

32.  Renew your playlist once in a while.

33.  Learn to accept CHANGE, DEFEAT. You cannot WIN every time now, can you?!(doesn’t mean   you get used to NOT winning, try harder next time)

34.  Explore your creativity spectrum.

35.  Believe in your DREAMS. INCEPT new ones.

36.  Be the change you want to see in others and DON’T let DIFFICULT situations change YOU(your  beliefs).

37.  Get back to improving your not-so-good Geographical Knowledge (GK  too/2 ).Please do!

38.  In your spare time, if you’re bored of observing people, try philosophizing LIFE.

       39.  Come to me, look me in the eye and say- “I love you!”

 40.  Going for long drives alone is fine, once in a while, but  don’t follow “LONER-ism”(you know what I mean!)

So, its time you checked each one from the above list, one-by-one. Starting with number 9?! Since you feel its Lucky for you or so I think.

Also, I missed no.28 because I know you FAIL to notice THAT error and also so that I could round it up to 40!

Anyway, its High time you realize you are worth so much more than what You think !

You’re a free-falling STAR, MY LOVE! 

Make the most of it. BREAKFREE. 

Say you will!

Love you itna saara – (*arms wide open*)

- ME ! :)

Dear diary

Today I have come to talk to you, only because ;

I feel I’m losing EVERYTHING, when really, I’m losing nothing;

I feel I have no strength, when really, I haven’t been any stronger;

I feel I have no Inspiration, when really, I’m still so inspired;

I feel oh-so alone, when really, I’m among a huge crowd;

I feel so numb, when really, I couldn’t have any more emotions flowing ;

I feel disoriented, but really, I know exactly where I stand;

I feel so disturbed, when really, there’s nothing but silence around;

I feel so wrong, when really, I know I did nothing wrong;

I feel so worthless, when really, I couldn’t be more appreciated;

I feel I’ve given up, when really, I couldn’t be trying any harder;

I feel I’m so-NOT-loved, when really, one couldn’t have LOVED me more;

I feel I’m misunderstood, when really, I know YOU understand;

I feel I don’t care, BUT really, I couldn’t care more;

I feel like I’ve lost hopes, when really, I just couldn’t hope for more;

I feel my evil friends(loneliness and depression) are stalking me, when really, I see no one there;

I feel like giving IT my all, when really, I’m just so helpless, I CANNOT!

Do me a favor darling diary, if you can, get my petition signed by the superficial judiciary (the Creator) ,

Tell Him all I want Him to do is sign the petition that says:

Make me stronger,

Make me a happy and a peaceful soul,

Remove all the greed that I have in my heart (but all I am greedy for, is LOVE)

Make me smile and mean it EVERY TIME I smile,

Motivate me so irrevocably that I feel extremely capable of EVERYTHING,

PACK-UP all my expectations in a box, lock it, and again, pack That in A bigger box, put a big fat lock on that, and throw the Box in the deepest part of the sea,

And Don’t stop me, when I Love someone Unconditionally !

Yours sincerely (still smiling) , :)

-S

Any other World - Mika

In any other world

You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defenses

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in [x2]
Say goodbye

In any other world
You could tell the difference

[Spoken]
"I never ever, I forget my story.
My face is not sad, but sometimes, I am sad."


Mika : "There is a little spoken introduction that many people may miss.

It's a family friend of mine who lost her eye during the war in Lebanon and I realized in everyone's life there comes one point, or several points, where something happens and you have to completely change the way you have lived your life because of one event.

And it really makes you re-adjust and rethink and rejudge parts of your life all over again.

That happens to some people in a dramatic way like Rafa who lost both her eye and her husband within six months. Or it can be in a much quieter way like when you are 22-years-old and you finally leave university after being in education all your life or when you lose your job.

I wanted to put that in the song, because when you're 68 or 14, it's still the same feeling and it's still just as hard.

I wanted to try to capture that quite difficult period that people have to go through at least once in their life."

It's one of my favorites. I don't know how you relate to it, or whether you relate to it or not,but, i can relate to it in more than one ways. 

My take on the song is , when you are made to face the HARSH REALITY (and someday you definitely will, if you haven't as yet ) , when you just feel helpless, don't try to control it because certain things/situations are  just irrepressible .SO, do not let yourself be bowled over and get caught up in that situation, learn to move on, let go, be strong and try your best to get over it, rub it off and Smile Like You Mean it. 

After all, you won't know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.Let's see it this way, Such situations would just help you become more resilient and prepare you to face similar situations coming your way.

That's Life ! And...... It's frikkin' BEAUTIFUL , all the bitterness you had/have to swallow , It sure as hell is worth IT.

You'll see ! :)

- "DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY !" 

(worries never get us anywhere, except,  probably therapy sessions with psychiatrists ?!) :P

Lots of intense Love,

-S

love to L.O.V.E. you baebey !

"Mohabbat bhi zindagi ki tarah hoti hai, har mod aasan nahi hota, har mod par khushi nahi milti.... Par jab hum zindagi ka saath nahi chodte to hum mohabbat ka saath kyon chhode."

“AAJ ....aaj ek zindagi aur jeelo .aaj ek hasin aur baathlo,

aaj ek sapna aur dekhlo , aaj ek aason aur peelo

aaj ek dua aur maanglo ... AAJ ...kya pata....... kal ho na ho"

“Koi pyaar kare to tumse kare..Tum jaise ho waise kare..Koi tumko badalke pyar kare to woh pyar nahin , sauda hota hai.. Aur saheba pyar mein sauda nahin hota.. right??”

“tumhare hath mein likha hai ki tumhara mr. perfect tumhare samne rahega phir bhi tum use pehchaan nahin paogi”

“Ekk baar, bas ekk bar meri aankhon main aankhen daal kay kahe do ki tum mujh say pyar nahi kartey”

"Pyar...pyar dosti hai..aur agar woh meri sab se achhi dost nahiin ban sakti toh mein ussay kabhi pyar kar hi nahiin sakta...so simple..pyar dosti hai"

“Pyar ek khoobsurat ehsaas hai jo hamari zindagi mein ek hawa ke jhonke ki tarah aata hai aur hamari zindagi ka rom rom uski khushboo se mahek uthta hai.”

“Dosti pyar ka pehla kadam hota hai. Hum pehla kadam to utha lete hain lekin doosra kadam uthane se itna darte kyun hain. Doosra kadam baddha kar dekho- har mushkil asaan ho jayegi aur har manzil tumhe khud ba khud mil jayegi”

“Pyar sirf paaney ka naam nahi hai....pyar ka doosra naam kurbaani hai!!!!”

“Agar tumhara pyarr jana chahe to usay jaane do, Agar woh laut kar aaye toh woh tumhara hai.”

“agar tum mujhe aise hi dekhti rahogi ... toh tumhe mujhse pyar ho jayega”

“Tere dil mein meri saanson ko Panaah mil jaaye, teri ishq mein meri jaan Fanaa ho jaaye !”

“mujhe kaise pataa chale gaa ke woh ladki koun hai jo mere liye banayi gayi hai... i mean jab woh saamne aayegi toh baadal garajne lagenge, bijali chamkne lagegi, music aajayegaa kya hoga?

Woh tumhe batayegaa woh ladki koun hai. woh tumhe ek ishaaraa dikhaye gaa aur tumaraa dil samaj jaayega ke woh ladki koun hai”

Kuch kuch hota hai darling, tum nahin samjhoge ! ;)

I knowww…. “i-n-t-e-n-s-e” it is!!  It took me quite some time to find these clichéd dialogues.

AS DRAMATIC AS I AM .. I love the "love cliches" ..  “pyar kiya nahin jaata, ho jaata hai” tops the list!

Also, my super favorite lines from the song "gulabi aankhein- mohammed rafi"
but , it sounds awesome when atif sings it... <3 skip <3

- "zara sa hass ke, jo dekha tune

main tera bismill.. ho gayaaa
sambhaalo mujhko, oh mere yaaro ,
sambhalna mushkil ho gayaa

gulabi aankhein jo teri dekhi ..sharabi yeh dil.. ho gayaaa " :)

(HEY YOU, Mr.Prince charming, you'd better mug it and sing it to me )

Ps: haso , jeeyo , muskurao.. khush raho.. kya pata .. kal ho naa ho!

BE IT-

- Wo ai ni- mandarin

- Je t'aime- French

- Ich liebe dich- german

- Ti amo- Italian

- Kimi o ai shiteru – Japanese

- Ya lyublyu tebya- Russian

- Te quiero- Spanish

And the toughest so far would be:

-'Rwy'n dy garu di….(welsh) 

How The F**ck do you even pronounce that?! But they surely use it in Y Wladfa… ( that’s even tougher to pronounce)….!!

-I LOVE YOU

One thing that's common among all the above mentioned lines is that its the language of LOVE -

All that matters is you say it, express it, be it whatever language.. if you say it with all your heart , even an " I L U" can work wonders ! :)

  

Happy Valentine’s Day – today, say it like you feel it … and like always smile like you mean it :)

Lots and lots of intense-love

-S

Random Facts-

1.       Till the age of 4 or 5 “the fan” was a monstrous machine to me that would fall on me and chop me into pieces! I cried every time, someone turned it on! :P

2.       I could doze off while eating dinner when I was in the 1^st grade, NO, not anymore .

3.       I cry like a nutcase while watching “senti” movie scenes (includes comedy movies like Munna bhai MBBS, 3idiots, Golmaal 3, many more..)

4.       I loved to cycle

Ps: I rode a 4 wheeler CYCLE till I was in 4^th or 5^th grade!

5.       I finally learnt to ride a “bi”cycle in the 9^th grade. Thanks to one of my very good friends. :)

6.       I love dancing. I dance almost every day, till date, be it just some crazy moves in front of the mirror. :P

7.       MATH scares me! I have had a very bad relation with it.

8.       RAINS- it’s like a love-hate relation. I love it when I want to (when I really want to get wet) and hate it (when it enters my life without MY PERMISSION and gives me bad-hair days)

9.       I love going for long drives – alone with “my playlist” in the music player.

10.   I can endlessly sit and stare at the sea-waves. It’s a bliss.

11.   I tend to pick up random “words”/ “habits” I hear from friends/family.

12.   I stand at the entrance of a local train compartment, even though there are vacant seats.

13.   Sometimes, I randomly smile looking at my reflection in the mirror (as if it’s a different person)

14.   Sometimes I jump and shout (out of happiness) when I hear some good news or when my fav sports team wins a match.

15.   It’s my wish to sing “love story- Taylor swift” at a KARAOKE.

16.   I can FINALLY eat Chinese with chopsticks now. Learnt it a few days back. I’m pretty good at it. I THINK.

17.   I hate it when people sing songs without getting the lyrics right. Dude , keep shut if u do not know the lyrics.

18.   I can’t take it when people try to prove me wrong when I know I AM RIGHT. And I feel restless until I prove them wrong. Or until I prove myself, RIGHT?!

19.   I once misunderstood vinegar for water and had a big fat sip of it. Try it once.

20.   I crave for lays with cheese dip. But, like it’s said “a moment on your lips, forever on your hips.”

21.   I don’t like the fact that I no more stay in a “JOINT FAMILY”.

22.   I BELIEVE in fairy tales. And I’m waiting for my prince charming! J

23.   I love- LOVE STORIES.ROMANCE.DRAMA.RANDOMNESS.

24.   I don’t like to share my food. And it annoys me when someone says “no, I don’t want to eat” and then when your food arrives, starts hogging from your plate! Couldn’t you open your mouth when I asked you????!

25.   I hate it when I type an essay-type message and receive “K” as a reply. How boring are you?!

26.   I love that smell of petrol in the car, when you just got the tank filled.

27.   The airplane toilet flushes scare me. That sound is SCARY.

28.   I love the “snooze” button on the alarm.

29.   The sound of a pebble falling in a lake/pond excites me.

30.   I wait for a few seconds in my car, until my favorite song ends.

31.   I dislike people multitasking while “brushing their teeth”.

32.   I talk to myself (spirit in me) every night before falling asleep.

33.   A hot cup’a coffee can do wonders for me, when I have had a tiring day.

34.   PINK.BLACK.WHITE. :)

35.   I have an irresistible desire to buy the “Ralph-Lauren COOL” perfume for myself.

36.   I feel happy when some special people remember the special dates. Because I DO. :P

37.   I cry when I can’t express my anger or frustration.

38.   Rodents, insects, and creepy animals FREAK THE FUCK OUT OF ME. If someone says there’s a cockroach on the wall behind you, I’ll scream and jump, like a retard without even looking behind.

39.   I tend to relate my life story or my friends’ life stories with movie scripts.

40.   Melted chocolate, and Nutella – I find them finger-licking delicious!

For now, this much is enough. Ill come back with a sequel soon. I guess you know me better now.

PS: when you smile, smile like you mean it !:)

lots of intense Love,

-S